Monday, December 8, 2008

Over All Update

It feels like ages ago when I embarked on the mission to rehab the rent house to get it ready for the market. I am glad to say the sign is going up and I am hoping for a quick sale...even in this market!

I am trying to get into the mood for the holidays but I am not too sure I am getting it...I really want to feel whatI see others feeling but I have never really had the overwhelming need to decorate to the point of no return OR to even listen to Christmas music. I feel my insides churning each time I hear one of those crazy songs...expecially in November before Thanksgiving.

I am headed to Houston to see my family for the holiday! I am looking forward to the brief change of scene...but with the upcoming new year, I see constant reminders of all the financials I need to get in order for tax time...YACK!

It's life...not always glorious...but is what it is!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

It's time to go live...

For a period of time I have been using this blog as a private journal, but I think it's time to go live with it for all to see. The randomness of the occurrences around me should be shared. While I do believe there are people who agree with me on some levels...I also feel there will be an equal amount of those who don't...and I am ok with that. For now I plan on using the site as a blog and journal where I can document my thoughts and feelings with the world...well those readers who care to tune in...I doubt it will ever go any further than that...but's a nice though. Maybe I could become the Joel Osteen of blogging...make a fortune and blow smoke up everyone's ass!

Spread the word about! Maybe it will become a household name!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

When will the bailout start helping?

Have any of you heard about the math behind what would happen if the government applied the bailout to every American over the age of 18? It's an incredible way of thinking. Basically when it was all said and done and all taxes were paid...each American over the age of 18 would receive close to $250k!!! How come that wasn't presented to the American population?!

Wouldn't handing someone $250k take some off the pressure of getting bills paid? Would all the people facing the idea of losing their home be able to catch up on payments to their lenders? Most might even be able to stimulate the economy with purchases they wouldn't have normally made.

I can't see how this would have been a bad option. Automakers, builders, and the economy in general would felt the benefits of this option. People would have started paying their own bills vs. watching corporate seek the benefits alone.

What about all these people who are walking away from debt because they see no other way out? Their credit scores are shot! And on the flip side...all the lenders who had no business lending the money in the first place are sitting pretty. I think this is a little messed up if you ask me.

I want my bailout! I would be sitting debt free WITH MOST of it reinvested into the real estate or investment stock markets.

We should be helping people not businesses!

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Looking forward Hanukkah

I am not Jewish, never have been...but have always had this unique fascination with the religion on all levels. As a kid I was a big fan of the necklaces that carried a scroll (mezuzah)...or even more envious that I was the only one that wasn't going to school on Saturday. Living in Alief all the subcultures had their own version of Saturday school to make sure they still held on to their cultural foundations. I always felt left out that I didn't have my own version of Hebrew school to attend religiously on Saturday.

But as I got older I started wishing why I wasn't one of the lucky kids who got to wear a yamika. Or to watch the jealousy spiral out of control... why wasn't I one of those kids that got to spend 8 days spinning the dreidel, lighting my menorah, and opening presents during the festival of light?!

Closing in on 30 years old, I often wish I had a Jewish that would show me all the ropes of the Jewish faith that I had been so envious of all these years, one with a strong Jewish mother like you see in all the movies that I could win over...EVEN having been brought up Catholic, and learning to acquire a taste for Manischewitz.

And the more and more I think about it...I guess 8 nights of playing with hot candle wax after the festivities were all over wouldn't be such a bad thing either ;)

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Starbucks will forever have a different meaning...

So I have started venturing out of my protected little area that I call my life to see what else is out there. I have been stung in the past by people doing different things to me while I was going through very difficult times in my life and since then I have been very passive in watching my own existence go by. That being said, I vowed to take some steps in changing my own life..yeah, yeah...I have been listening and trying to implement The Secret. of my first attempts at stepping outside the box on a new front was no so pleasant in terms of how it played out. I was grabbing a coffee at Starbucks yesterday on my way to my first appt and I noticed the guy in front of me in the line. He was dressed very cute with a camo military hat, cute jeans, and the coolest black jacket...very classy. Well it was one of things where I noticed him, but I don't think he noticed me until after he was done ordering. Well needless to say I am the very unconventional Starbucks goer...straight coffee and nothing else. So I was in and out. As I start walking to the door I notice him totally checking me out...and then I notice him watching me get into my car and his eyes stay locked on what I was doing even through the "backing out of the parking spot" routine. I thought about the situation the entire time I was driving to my appt.

After a car accident I had earlier in the year, I got notified of a post on CraigsList for missed connections and I dabbled with it once. And wouldn't have guessed it but I actually got a reply I have had a good response experience from that medium. SO WHAT DO I DO...of course...I regreted not making more of an effort with Mr. Starbucks and figured I would post an ad to see if he checked out that venue...I was also hoping on the flipside that I would have already been beat to the punch and there would be an ad there for me...not I proceed with the post.

Well a few hours later I get an email back from the ad.

"He's not interested. He's my bf. I was in line behind you. But we both thoughtyou were pretty damn good lookin!"

Ok, so what the hell are the chances of that! The emails continue for many more replies back and forth. I learn more than I need to about the inner details of their relationship and I find out that there's a lot more going on...NONE OF WHICH I have any interest in getting involved with.

So throughout the entire experience I feel like I have lost a coffee shop and my favorite home improvement store location.

What is a boy to do?! Losing a home improvement store in the middle of getting a rent house ready for market is not good! :( Henh Henh!!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Is timing everything?

I am starting to find the randomness in the timing that surrounds me on almost every level...finding my inner ability to do things I have never tried before.

I am what you would say finally opening myself up to the idea of dating.  I have been on a couple dates and I find the whole concept very foreign and complicated.  I get the feeling that saying what you are feeling is taboo.  I think there's a general sense of keeping your emotions bottled up so that you don't come off as being too needy or too interested.  I have never been good at games...nor have I have been too naturally the competition on this level is out of my realm.  Why do I find myself "playing" into these game...never saying what's really on my mind?  So I guess I must and guess I should continue to play the game for now in hopes that it will yield the desired outcome eventually.  Until then, I am going to keep myself and my interests of well being in the forefront and do my best not to settle for less than what I need to be happy and protect myself as an individual.  I refuse to loose myself for the sake of being in a relationship ever again.

So on to other rent house is FINALLY VACANT!!  I am excited, scared, and frustrated all at the same time.  I spent all weekend sick as hell...repainting parts of the house, doing Sheetrock work and fixing minor plumbing items.  I had no idea I was handy...I guess being forced to sit back and watch for so long has actually paid off in a venture that is going to help me at the end of the day.  So the goal is to sell the house.  If you know of anyone looking to buy a house in the Round Rock area for less than $150k let me know.  I have a super cute 3/2 with a 2 car garage that will be hitting the market as soon as I have it all sorts of cute!  If you are interested email me at

The timing of the occurrences in my life continually amaze me.  The randomness of life is perplexing.  And frankly, I wouldn't have it any other way!

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Why don't people say what they mean...or mean what they say?!

I am so tired of having to digest the contents of every conversation I have to find out the true meaning of the message.

When people say they have "let go of the anger"...I am not sure after this weekend that is what it really means. I am thinking this phrase is used way to often to describe the momentary level of comfort one is seeking to make themselves feel better about their current place.

Or when people say, "get back with you soon". WTF! What is soon? Does that mean a few hours, days, weeks... I am a person who thrives on the idea of having a schedule or understanding of time frames. I am completely OK with lifetime commitments, or even dedicating a few hours of my time to a movie that I know sucks before I invest the time. But can anyone really explain the time span associated with the word "soon".

Best of all, I love hearing "this is happening for a reason"...really?! Do you really know this to be true or are you just repeating the words you heard roll off someone else's tongue! I believe it would be useful for the person muttering those fond words to actually know what the hell they are talking about and tell me the damn "reason" and how they know this to be true.