I am what you would say finally opening myself up to the idea of dating. I have been on a couple dates and I find the whole concept very foreign and complicated. I get the feeling that saying what you are feeling is taboo. I think there's a general sense of keeping your emotions bottled up so that you don't come off as being too needy or too interested. I have never been good at games...nor have I have been too athletic...so naturally the competition on this level is out of my realm. Why do I find myself "playing" into these game...never saying what's really on my mind? So I guess I must and guess I should continue to play the game for now in hopes that it will yield the desired outcome eventually. Until then, I am going to keep myself and my interests of well being in the forefront and do my best not to settle for less than what I need to be happy and protect myself as an individual. I refuse to loose myself for the sake of being in a relationship ever again.
So on to other new...my rent house is FINALLY VACANT!! I am excited, scared, and frustrated all at the same time. I spent all weekend sick as hell...repainting parts of the house, doing Sheetrock work and fixing minor plumbing items. I had no idea I was handy...I guess being forced to sit back and watch for so long has actually paid off in a venture that is going to help me at the end of the day. So the goal is to sell the house. If you know of anyone looking to buy a house in the Round Rock area for less than $150k let me know. I have a super cute 3/2 with a 2 car garage that will be hitting the market as soon as I have it all sorts of cute! If you are interested email me at johnpaul@austin.rr.com
The timing of the occurrences in my life continually amaze me. The randomness of life is perplexing. And frankly, I wouldn't have it any other way!
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